"Perfectly lonely."

I swear, just when you're not looking someone a pile of men (or women), come rushing in. I suppose the saying is true, "when you're not looking, you'll find someone." Who ever came up with that saying anyway? Though I've found it to be true, I'm not quite sure I'm even ready to find that someone who may be looking for me or love in general. I have become so comfortable with my solitude that I'm almost scared to let go of it. It took me quite some time to get to where I am, that losing it would almost be like breaking up with myself. Perhaps I haven't encountered the right person just yet? Needless to say, this saying of, "you'll find someone when you're not looking" slapped me in the as of late.

I've been chatting with his man on the phone for about a week and a half now. And I'm not quite sure what to make the of the situation. He seems nice, friendly, easy to talk to, open-minded. But the minor flaw that is driving me insane is that he is way too available-if that's possible? And he is very forward to the point that it makes me nervous and second guess his "niceness." And usually I would let this kind of stuff work itself out, but I can't. I've told him that a major turn off is when a man comes on too strong-you'd think he'd get the hint! It is obvious what he is looking for, a relationship. And it's not that I'm not looking or wanting the same thing, but as I stated above, I'm not sure if I'm really ready for all that agin. Or is it that I'm ready for a relationship and ready to break up with myself, but just not for this guy?

Is this a problem? Not the man, but me. I am so comfortable being alone that I'm somewhat happy that my roommates moved out. I love coming home knowing there is no one here. I love waking up in the morning and taking a shower with the door open-if i so please. Or coming from work and being able to take off my shoes, jacket, and everything else at the door and just leaving them there. Now, perhaps I'm looking to far into this, but is this a problem? I'm finally found myself to be an independent woman who enjoys her solitude and would rather have a date with a glass of wine and a good magazine than a glass of wine and a good looking man.

According to John Mayer it is okay to be, "Perfectly Lonely" and I am just that!